[Virgin Retrospect] [Days long past] [Amicae]
Below are the 50 most recent journal entries recorded in
Aesis Sui`Generis' LiveJournal:
| Saturday, February 6th, 2010 | |
| 6:16 pm | You are not a very good influence in my life right now You normally always have been You are not often happy in my company You dream of the times when You saw us sail across the country I dreamt of the times when I'd melt across across your body I felt like saying that I had no idea this was real I had no idea to leave Next post is my 1000th post. I will leave livejournal on that note. I loved the experience, it has been nearly 10 years on here and this is one of the best chapters in my life. No one really is here still, at least not active / that isn't in my phone now, so there is no reason to keep this dying limb alive. There are times where we must taste the blood that is drawn back from the amputation of a once necessary limb. I will try to blow you all away with the 1000th post. The best to be written may not even have yet taken place. And if I fail, at least I'd have blown you. |
| Sunday, December 13th, 2009 | |
| 10:20 pm |
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| Wednesday, December 9th, 2009 | |
| 12:53 am | |
| Tuesday, September 29th, 2009 | |
| 9:39 pm | |
| Monday, September 28th, 2009 | |
| 7:43 am | |
| Saturday, August 29th, 2009 | |
| 9:05 pm | |
| Thursday, August 20th, 2009 | |
| 11:01 am | |
| 10:55 am | What a busy week So for the first time in forever, I've been extremely busy each night. Monday was writing and rooftop fun, Tuesday was bowls deep, Last night I saw "Be a Man" which was a surprisingly decent play at some place off of MacDougal with my friend Lauren, tonight will be No Parking on the Dance Floor at the House of Yes if anyone is interested, and tomorrow night is my girlfriend's play! holla holla hollahollahollaaaaaaaaaaa
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| Friday, August 7th, 2009 | |
| 2:21 pm | Days like this I don't know what to do with myself It is amazing how fast you can get things done in this city. 10:15 - twinge for benzos 10:30 - searching 10:45 - on the horn 11:15 - found availability 12:00 - appointment 12:15 - story time (with yours truly) 12:45 - pen to paper And now the pilgrimage to cvs -- this weekend will be even more colorful.
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| Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 | |
| 3:18 pm |
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| Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009 | |
| 9:19 pm | |
| Sunday, May 17th, 2009 | |
| 2:00 am | |
| Monday, May 4th, 2009 | |
| 8:33 am | All day (and morning) (and night) I dream about sex We're moving!!! Yay! Should be in less than two weeks. Already had the lease signing -- so much to catch up on !
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| Sunday, April 12th, 2009 | |
| 6:52 pm | Slightly Offensive "Terrorist" is the new "Nigger"
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| 11:31 am | |
| Saturday, April 11th, 2009 | |
| 5:53 pm | There is an extreme value to things that are completely self-contained This is why many musicians when jumping into the studio quickly pick up the acoustic guitar Because it doesn't need batteries
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| Friday, March 27th, 2009 | |
| 2:31 pm | Just got in from going out last night.. and there wasn't much filler between I single-handedly, repeatedly verified by previously unmet strangers, ran an entire Miami nightclub floor for no less than 8 hours straight last night. On the most busy week of the year no less I danced until my pores bled joy and breathed light, moisture and sound waves I danced the nasty faces off the hot eurotrash bitches and brought back lost vigor to uncountable girls and guys both I danced with my face pointed to the sky, I controlled everything, I found something well beyond the drugs I didn't turn down a single battle, I've never battled prior, and I never came close to losing I alienated noone ----------------------------------- This is no dream, and the beautiful women of the international world were at my beckon, which made it feel that much better knowing it was an indirect, unforceful control. They followed like pinwheels, and I loved many of them As I do with so many women And with all of those healthy seeds planted, there was no need to prove I still had to pot any of them What a beautiful, beautiful thing Something that really noone I know can claim, something I could have never dreamt of even given all of my experience/s (NYC and other) My heart is unrepenting by default, and from the stories I heard and from what I set in motion and received, my expression is in it's entirety welcome Everyone needs a break from douchebags anyway. Why not me Current Music: Some club shit poolside
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| Thursday, March 26th, 2009 | |
| 11:14 pm |
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| 5:49 pm | More celebration links http://maps.google.com/maps?oe=UTF-8&sourceid=ie7&ie=UTF8&q=shine+miami&fb=1&split=1&gl=us&cid=0,0,16512579825180572528&ei=3_bLSazlN8PqnQe9ncnMCQ&ll=25.823873,-80.120936&spn=0.00112,0.001966&t=h&z=19 Last night was great Saw Josh Wink, who was solid, but I am better. Venue was Shine at the Shelbourne, good spot. Would have gone today for poolside party but I hung by our poolside and am going to the IDMA's (International Dance Music Association's) award show tonight. Everyone will be there Gonna do it all over again tonight, hopefully past 5am this time
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| 2:25 pm |
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| Tuesday, March 24th, 2009 | |
| 3:59 pm | |
| Wednesday, March 4th, 2009 | |
| 9:05 am | |
| Thursday, February 19th, 2009 | |
| 7:12 pm | |
| Friday, February 13th, 2009 | |
| 10:46 am | Have you ever woke up feeling like you've driven a car so far in one direction that when you looked behind you realized you had done something wrong by driving away as ferociously as you had once loved? I did this morning, and it brought tears to my eyes in seconds. Real tears. Her smiles and my sadness. For someone who proposes such invulnerability, I am so easily paralyzed. |
| Tuesday, February 10th, 2009 | |
| 8:47 am | My muscles feel smooth and toned. My head feels like a dry carwreck. I am a pen constantly looking for paper I am the product of unbreakable thread wound ever tighter around an unbreakable spool The tension in the front of my brain and the precision of my fingers suggest not trusting myself My words are weapons and I am often glued to them, blood as to water, glue as to them both My rapture is found in brief and fleeting moments yet I am free from the addiction of rush I think it is rather pathetic to be in so many situations such as I am, like a child I have noone to explain most of these things to Noone spends or seems to have the lust needed to receive what I have to offer in its whole capacity So I sit and vibrate, not unlike the atoms |
| Monday, February 9th, 2009 | |
| 10:10 pm | |
| Saturday, February 7th, 2009 | |
| 1:49 pm | |
| 1:49 pm | |
| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009 | |
| 9:32 pm | |
| Monday, February 2nd, 2009 | |
| 8:18 pm | |
| Sunday, January 25th, 2009 | |
| 11:01 pm | |
| Monday, January 19th, 2009 | |
| 7:13 pm | In case you were wondering (on how to get a clear shot) this is where i work: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bloomberg_ not where i live: http://www.luxist.com/2006/02/20/one-be (same building) |
| Sunday, January 11th, 2009 | |
| 5:10 am | "unforced" submission rather than forcing someone to do something when force is not permissible, make conditions so remarkedly foul that there is no other human choice sounds disgusting i know whatever on first pass assess what is most valuable and make further advancement impossible without voluntary submission this is the process of "unforced" submission Current Music: Kashmir |
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| 4:35 am | to answer your question in the incredibly unlikely and tragic event that i die before my mom, i respectfully ask that someone bring her attention to this collection's availability as in this case it is only right the beauty of ideas is built within noone buys everyone owns scaling without limit i bet steve jobs is like this with his stupid fancy macintoshes and shit fucking they are classy arent they how is it that everyone around me gets a better computer than me aint that a bitch
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| 4:35 am | to answer your question about as long as they let me breathe
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| 4:26 am | at least it makes sense. still my left foot. completely different than my right. even the stress in the leg above. on the right side, rather calm. like at an equilibrium doing this all in realtime is what amazes me realtime perfor a song as a loose collection of musically appended and defined ideas rather than loops tied and segmented together . how dare you get the best of me at my own game this is all really hard to define shit principle is the only long term approach that i can possibly dream of in the short term obviously doing anything that is necessary to get the job done is called for the art the real art mind you is in the bridge between the two.
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| 4:18 am | to anyone reading this in the default order presented this must be even more confusing to read than to have thought up right?
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| 4:18 am | life has to be something more than a set of processes and reminders right? and however pleasant, fucking? i guess thats where i draw the line and am satisfied.. which is why my returns end there but pay me and give me a bed and a bench and ill give you just about goddamn anything possible revision one point oh give me a bed and a bench and ill give you just about anything humanly possible why else could i not we are all humans right with my psychological intense thoughts all postin too many times at an obscene hour of the morning what is his fucking deal right i dont get it either. this is weird right my left foot clenches but not my right when there is initial stress or indecision about what i dont know but its just my left foot this must mean something to someone somewhere studying the brain put out a fucking memo right i suppose this means the right side of the brain is in charge or is at least stuck with dealing with new things or the return of an intermittent strobe to think i used to make tacos and not very well
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| 4:14 am | and whats up with Jessica Rabbit why isn't there more of her in everybody's daily diet sex and jazz and cartoon whatever . whats the source thats what is meaningful to know these things all came from something, and either had the foresight or the recklessness to set this into motion makes me wonder eventually some thoughts are even too perverse for here i suppose mainly in the interest of time since there is no other responsibility right
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| 4:13 am | which reminds me a lot of that bastard german on 30th st. armind or armen of some netherland sort. i admire and revere him for his ability if you are abbreviating something you better be able to explain what you are abbreviating. mister
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| 4:10 am |
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| 4:10 am | if i dont have all of the answers, i at least have all of the answers that went into the questions resolved from the process of my own creation thats clever enough in itself right? looking stupid answers the other questions quickly, meaningfully -ly?
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| 4:10 am | remind Melissa that there should be no conflict we have common goals and i have been asked to complete one of them so if there is a way to reduce any unnecessary or undue load that is placed on you or your team let me know so i can make changes accordingly the common goal is to price things correctly the way management sees fit in a meaningful, constructive time-efficient manner mention my idea to Ken of a sliding window dont be afraid to reach out the point is to offer better ways for those to follow in the future and to enjoy myself why i am here entirely as much as possible given enough time i defy you to present something to me that you can understand that i cannot layla was the best thing i ever could have got juno what a smart idea. i need help remembering things because so much is going on at once if i had my way i would not think about anything except playing the guitar or piano goddamn synthesizers and your newfound hoopidity-what just gimme the hum off the wall that 50/60Hz side effect and ill turn that into some dope shit fuckin people starvin for ideas ive got a billion for you just not enough subscribers havent figured out a way yet how to stop coming up for air a notable a slow mandation if i didnt have to come up for air i would get so much more done but i would constantly be an asshole and make an ass of myself dont make me go backwards because thats someone else's business and that country sounding crap too who ever asked them to play this ridiculous retarded shit even for led zeppelin give me a fucking break at least keep it off of the dvd. well i guess it sounds good. fucking talent its hard to stay that skinny isnt it. we get fat because were addicted to the sensation of taste how hard is it to emulate that? should be easy enough they have rubber vaginas right same thing different organ next cancer. that worries me. i dont understand it dont know where it comes from dont get the body dont get how some organs are dispensable or at least receycleable so it seems like whats up with a gallbladder or however the fuck its supposed to be spelled and why the hell would creation put an OPTIONAL organ in this model that we only get one of, and one chance at why have fucking optional organs like an appendix i guess this is the way creation tries new ideas in a production environment doesnt seem to be working out, at least in the case of the appendix but im arrogant so why listen to me defy the defiant thats the best whats the purpose in pissing people off but people sure do get off on it, myself included i guess we're addicted to smiles and this is one way to get one is to piss someone off i should make a mental note to deliberately piss more people off during the day maybe id have a more pleasant day best part is noone would even notice a difference. . |
| 3:48 am | led zeppelin is the best there has ever been playing my guitar is not just something else to do it is rather difficult to do two things simultaenously this is what i should work on next when i am gone i better have some unique art to leave behind and a good place for it or noone except for my family will remember me
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